sWeeT grEen aPpLe

aku cHeNta sKoOt

2009-05-21T00:22:00.003+08:00

wow!!!so smart...nux3!!!

emo giLer...mmg besh r dpAt design camnie...

chantek kan design skoOt nie...

nux cangat camnie,,tapi caPer nux uatkan...ahakz!!!

cOming bAck

2009-05-20T12:48:00.003+08:00

uish...dah dekat sebulan dah x ngepost entry baru...
nux wat camner,,xcempat laa...
nie pown bawu lik dari kedah...
sok nux alik umah...
yeyyy...
misz them sOo damn mUch...

kau yAng ku mAhu

2009-04-23T02:18:00.006+08:00

puas aku menanti

mengejar pada yang tidak pasti

sendiri aku pergi

meninggalkan kenangan

membawa satu harapan yang baru

semakin aku sendiri

sepi aku di sini

aku diam membisu

membiar kau sendiri

berharap akan ku tahu isi hatimu

dan kini

baru ku cuba untuk melangkah

kau bingkas menggenggam tanganku

miliki hati yang satu

berdiri di situ

aku dan dirimu

ToO coOL tO cAre

2009-04-09T23:46:00.002+08:00

And the princess found many knights on her way, even dressed up somehow her beauty would glow through her skin.

Those foolish games... I will never again make the princess chase her angel, It is only a reflection of what I have mistaken myself with, somebody who gave a damn...

I killed the princess without her ever getting to see her love again... her mission failed and either that or endure yet another attempt of suicide. Have you ever watched Silent Hill the movie? the part when the little girl was burnt repeated itself inside my hollow thoughts the other day...

Bow down and stare n wonder, how the Fenix is born again. The angel never was. The angel never will be. The angel got lost in another story, with another princess that jumps off a castle, the dressed up princess in the end gets captured by some errand people... in the woods. Without a single scream, she sees the truth. She was dying.

Blue day, gray day.

A once-upon-a-time-me da

mUsiCs

2009-04-09T23:35:00.004+08:00

LiFe is mUsic

and

mUsic is LiFe

The two different things that we can't to separate...

i Love music ever...

smiLe

2009-04-09T23:16:00.003+08:00

smile is a facial expressionformed by flexing those muscles most notably near both ends of the mouth. The smile can also be found around the eyes. Among humans, it is customarily an expression denoting pleasure, happiness, or amusement, but can also be an involuntary expression of anxiety, in which case it is known as a grimace. Cross-cultural studies have shown that smiling is used as a means of communicating emotions throughout the world. Happiness is most often the motivating cause of a smile. Among animals, the exposure of teeth, which may bear a resemblance to a smile, is often used as a threat or warning display known as a snarl or a sign of submission. In chimpanzees, it can also be a sign of fear. The study of smiles is a part of gelotology, psychology, and linguistics, comprising various theories of affect, humor, and laughter.

we're always smile like nuthink wrong... make people appy with us... we're always care of other's heart,, but who want to care 'bout our heart?? hmm... life is not always perfect... peace...

haNcuR hAti

2009-03-12T01:00:00.006+08:00

mengapa??
mengapa hati ini kau lukai

apakah ini dugaan untuk aku

tidak cukupkah kesetiaan yang aku berikan

mengapa??

mengapa hati ini kau lukai

walau kejujuran yang aku persembahkan

masih kau persiakan

aku setia dciNi
menanti saban hari
mencintai dan terus mencintai

tapi kau...kejam!!!

kau kejam syg

melukai hati yang parah

kau toreh luka yang makin dalam

mudah untuk kau permainkan

aku tidak pernah menyesal

mengenali dan mencintai

tapi aku meyesal

bodoh diperbodohkan

aku menyesal

setia walau dipermainkan

ketahuilah,

aku benar2 menyintaimu

sungguh,

aku menyintaimu

aku tahu kau jua begitu

namun kau masih lemah

kau tidak tahu membezakan

antara cinta dan sahabat

aku masih keliru...

masih setia pada cinta itu

walau aku sendiri tidak pasti

walau hati aku dilukai...

adakah cinta dia untuk aku??

~freNz eVer~

2009-03-10T18:56:00.004+08:00

~~i'll start to see real positive change in a troubled relationship today -- and it might be in a direction i weren't expecting. Expect to have many more discussions about our future together, because things are no longer what i thought we were going to be. The two of us need to come up with a roadmap of where we are going to go together -- and more importantly, where we are not going to go.~~

i realized that a freindship will never end if and only if we're always 'sincered' in a relationship

~dua hari bersama mereka~

2009-03-09T23:36:00.009+08:00

aku masih lagi lemah...lemah dengan air mata...aku tidak bisa melihat mereka menangis...aku perlu jadi kuat...aku perlu lebih kuat dari mereka...aku perlu tabah,,setabah hati Sumayyah...

saat aku melihat anak2 kecil itu,,bangkit subuh2 lagi,,bersama2 menunaikan solat taubat,,solat tahjud,, solat witir,, hati aku jadi sayup...bagaimana aku tidak bisa melakukannya,,sedangkan mereka,,anak2 kecil bisa melakukan...

(bingkisan dari blog diari muslimah)

Tabah jiwaku

Setabah umi Nabi Ismail

Mengendong bayinya yang masih merah

Mencari air penghilang dahaga

Di terik padang pasir merak

Ditinggalkan suami akur tanpa bantah

Pengharapannya hanya pada Allah

Itulah wanita Siti Hajar....

aku terfikir,, mampukah aku menjadi setabah itu...sekuat itu untuk menghadapi dugaan dalam kehidupan...

insyaAllah...

u're my FRIEND - u're my LOVE

2009-03-07T13:40:00.004+08:00

are we a...

or....

whatever we're

~nUtHinK~

2009-03-07T13:16:00.003+08:00

actually, nuthink to say now, but stiLL want to continue this entry. yeah, finally after two week work hard to settle all the works, and now i finished it. even my work is not perfect, but it enough to make me learn a new things in my life. make me realize, all the problems encountered will have a solution to solve it. what the most important things is be patient and cool even thousand problems come. i learn from the experience.

u aRe mY sUnsHine

2009-03-07T12:47:00.005+08:00

u are like my sunshine

giving me a smile in every tears

giving me a drug in every pain

giving me ur hand when i fall

giving me all of your life

make me as your soul ever

that's why i LOVE u

my always SUNSHINE

Lyrics : You Are My Sunshine

You Are My Sunshine

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away

The other nite, dear,

As I lay sleeping

I dreamed I held you in my arms.

When I awoke, dear,

I was mistaken

And I hung my head and cried.

You are my sunshine,

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away.

I'll always love you

And make you happy

If you will only say the same

But if you leave me

To love another

You'll regret it all some day;

You are my sunshine,

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away.

You told me once, dear

You really loved me

And no one else could come between

But now you've left me

And love another

You have shattered all my dreams;

You are my sunshine,

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away.

Louisiana my Louisiana

the place where I was borne.

White fields of cotton--

green fields clover,

the best fishingand long tall corn;

You are my sunshine,

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away.

Crawfish gumbo and jambalay

athe biggest shrimp and sugar cane,

the finest oystersand sweet strawberries

from Toledo Bend to New Orleans;

You are my sunshine,

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away.

~aKu hAmpir pUtus aSa~

2009-03-06T11:32:00.003+08:00

esok program SAY akan dirasmikan, tapi kerja aku masih tak siap lagi. ya aLLah, apakah ini dugaan buat aku. aku hampir berputus asa, 'fade up' dengan semua ni. berikanlah aku kekuatan ya allah.

apa lagi yang perlu aku lakukan. aku terkejar2 ke sana ke sini untuk siapkan semua ni. tapi masih lagi tak dterima. aku paling benci bila dengar mereka kata, 'awak kena edit balik....bla...bla...bla...' arghhh. rasa macam nak bagi jer kat mereka tu laptop dan suruh mereka edit sendiri.

masuk ni dah berpuluh kali kena edit balik, tapi masih tak dapprove lagi. saat ini, aku hanya termenung, menatap semua ini, mengharap agar ada satu keajaiban, kuasa yg Esa. Kuatkanlah hati ini ya Allah.

~ati ini ikhlas dengan tugas ini
tapi mengapa keikhlasan aku diuji sebegini~

aKu daLam DiLemA

2009-03-05T00:48:00.006+08:00

aku dalam diLemA

SeBuAh pERjaLaNan

2009-03-02T21:49:00.003+08:00

Perjalanan aku bermula jam 8.45 pagi bergerak menuju ke destinsi pertama, arena Gambang untuk mengisi perut2 yang masih kosong lagi nampaknya. En.Shukor tidak mahu kami kebuluran sepanjang perjalanan nanti.

Selesi sudah bersarapan, kami meneruskan perjalanan yang masih panjang lagi. Dan aku, mengambil posisi yang sesuai untuk melelapkan mata. 'Perut sudah kenyang, apa lagi, tidur lah'.

Namun tidurku seakan2 terganggu apabila van menyusuri jalan Jerantut-Lipis. Manakan tidak, jalan yang kami lalui itu sperti jalan maut. Turun naik bukit, dan bersimpang siur. dalam keadaan begitu, berpuluh2 lori balak silih berganti dengan van kami, terasa kerdil dan mahu gugur jantung rasanya. Aku berpura2 lena, walupun tidurku sebenarnya hanya helah untuk mengelakkan aku dari pening dan loya.

Alhamdulillah, jam 12.30 kami selamat sampai di Kg. Keledek Kuala Lipis. Tanpa berlengah, kami menuju ke bilik mesyuarat sekolah untuk menjalankan tujuan utama kedatangan kami ke sana iaitu memeterai kerjasama dengan para penduduk kampung dalam menjayakan program bakti siswa perdana.

Jm 3.00...Huh...lega rasanya setelah ketua kampung (tok Pat) menandatangani persetujuan kerjasama itu.

Kemudian, kami di bawa melawat sekitar kawasan sekolah dan juga kawasan kampung. Tok Pat membawa kami melawat kolam ternakan ikan kampung. Seronok sangat di situ.

Waktu sentiasa mencemburui kami menyebabkan kami tidak dapat lama berada di situ.

pak cik van bersuara 'jom lalu jalan yang lain'. huh...lega...dalam hati, 'tidak jatuh jantung aku lagi'. Jalan yang kami lalui kali ini lebih landai dan agak selamat. kami melalui jalan Lipis-Raub sebelum masuk ke lebuhraya.

aku tidak lena tidur kerana ternanti2 satu tempat yang aku akan lalui. tempat yang aku teringin sangat pergi, dan akhirnya aku sampai juga. aku tidak pernah jemu untuk berangan2 ke sana, walaupun aku sering kecewa. Hari ini aku dapat lagi ke sini. walaupun kali ini aku sekadar lalu, tapi cukup buat aku gembira. (pelik kan)

Perjalan diteruskan, meninggalkan tempat itu. (sedih pula). aku masih tidak dapat melelapkan mata. manakan tidak, asyik berangan saja.
aiiii...bila la akan menjadi kenyataan. hurm...

Sedar2, van berhenti rehat di Temerloh. dapat juga aku merenggangkan badan ni. lenguh rasanya. Disitu berjumpa dengan staf2 UMP yang baru pulang dari kem Bina Negara.

Usai solat maghrib, perjalanan diteruskan lagi. Fikiranku masih di awang-awangan. Aku berada di luar dunia aku sendiri. perjalanan yang singkat sekali aku rasa apabila van membelok memasuki pintu UMP.
Selamat sampai akhirnya.
Mahu balik bilik untuk sambung mimpi dan anganku...

MiSsiNg yOu

2009-03-02T00:31:00.005+08:00

aku sendiri tidak tahu mengapa

hati ini terasa rindu sangat pada kamu

rindu pada kenangan itu

seribu penyesalan yang tiada kesudahan

pernah aku singkir kau dari hidupku

tapi mengapa bayanganmu

masih mengekori

aku buntu

The Tears Are Falling

2009-03-01T23:42:00.005+08:00

my heart feels such pain,

tell me how to stop my tears.

what can i do to ease the pain?

why, has life always been so hard,

showering me with such heavy burdens.

the tears keep falling

as I lay down to sleep.

my eyes wide open,

flashes of my past,

of things i lost in my life.

as the tears fall, memories

floating around in my mind,

going back in time.

remembering al the good times

when i had it all.

the tears are falling like a summer rain,

wishing i could turn bck time.

never thinking one day,there would

be no you here besides me.

with tears falling down my face,

knowing there is nothing left

but my memories of time past,

when you were there besides me,

keeping me safe.

making all the problems seem small

as you are standing so tall.

no tears of sorrow,

only love, hope and happiness,

never thinking of tommorow.

now as my tears are falling

there is no one here to wipe them away.

just my hands of loneliness
praying, what to do.

i stared at nothing, trying to decide

where do i go from here,

which way do i turn?

the tears are falling, remembering

all the things i took for granted,

now that all is lost and gone

as i wipe the tears falling down my face,

i look up to the sky and pray.

"please God, help to show me the way.

lead me down the right path,

give me the strength to carry on.

it's so lonely here by myself

with so many things to do.

i need you to give me the faith

to see me through."

the tears have stop falling.

with God's help i'll figure out

what i need to do.

it nay not be the best,

but it the best that i can do,

living my life by myself, without you.

Ann Taylor

AKU DATANG LAGI!!!

2009-02-19T23:40:00.005+08:00

aku???
arghhh,,mengapa dia muncul...bukankah sudah lama saya singkir dia dari hidup ini...
mengapa dia datang kembali dan mengganggu hidup ini...saya tidak perlukan dia lagi...saya sudah punya diri saya sendiri sendiri...saya tidak perlukan aku!!!
saya tidak akan pernah lupakan saat dimana aku telah membunuh sifat kasih dan sayang saya menjadi seorang yang hipokrit!
saya tidak mahu aku hadir dalam perjalanan hidup saya lagi...
mengapa???
mengapa aku sentiasa mengekori setiap detik yang saya susuri...apakah saya tidak punya ruang untuk membina kehidupan saya sendiri...mengapa aku begitu kejam dan cuba merampas kebahagiaan yang saya ada...tidakkah kau kasihan melihat saya kehilangan segalanya...
dimana hilangnya perikemanusiaan kamu???
aku...
janganlah ganggu hidup saya lagi...
saya tidak mahu peristiwa pahit itu berulang kembali...saya punya hati dan perasaan saya sendiri...saya tidak perlukan kamu untuk memiliki kebahagiaan itu...cukuplah saya menderita selama ini...cukuplah...berikan saya ruang untuk memilih jalan saya sendiri...
dari sek. rendah,,masuk ke menengah,,kau sentiasa mengekori saya...hinggakan di matrikulasi pun,,kau hadir mengganggu saya...cukuplah...hentikan lagkahmu itu...pisahkanlah dirimu dan diriku...saya mahu bebas...bebas dari belengu kamu!!!
ya allah...saya tidak mahu kehilangan orang2 yang saya sayang...berikanlah saya kekuatan untuk melawan aku dari terus menghantui diri ini...kuatkanlah diriku ya allah...cukuplah saya menangis,,kecewa,,menderita kerana aku...janganlah Kau biarkan aku menguasai diri saya lagi...
saya mahu bebas seperti insan biasa...

~~aku bukan manusia
aku x bisa bicara
aku tidak punya hati dan naluri
aku tidak pernah mengalah dan beralah
tetapi aku sentiasa menghantui~~

d' Latest piCtuRe

2009-02-15T20:20:00.015+08:00

after this,,i don't wanna read 'the naza' blog page...bcoz of wat...bcOz i always being tag when i read his blog entry...huh...

the instruction below had been edit by naza :
1. go to your picture folder
2. take your latest picture

(p/s : nak 1 gbr jer tapi sAjer ltak byk gbar...huhu...)

SENANDIKA SWEET SANGAT...

apalah dugaan aku wat entry kali ini...setiap kali aku upload image,,nak edit tempat musti terdlete blik...aii...sabar2...dugaan...tyme ni aku baru habis stdy analytical...trasa free,,tu yang jwab tag yg dah lmer jgak naza bagi...ada lagi satu tag,,nanti aku usahakan yer...

-SkOoL maTes-

2009-02-13T23:32:00.004+08:00

rEunion day...regretfully,,i'm not being there wif them...but all this pics giving me a smile again...

miss u all a lot dear...the beutiful friendship came from the beuty of the bona fides...

and there's where we were going through this relationship...

always remember n remember,,and doesn't try to forget about it...

people always said,,love will never die till d' end...

now,,i realized that friendship will also never die till d' end

of our life...it's up to ourself to make a beutiful friendship...

there's something special in there...

how we will get it??

wif a truly heart among us...huhu

try to make a laugh in every cry...

try to make a smile in every tears...

there will be a friendship ever...

sweety in the beach...ahaks...

miss u dear...

waiting a time to meet u all again...

LOVE

2009-02-13T02:41:00.004+08:00

i try to walk alone...but i can't...

i need someone who can stayed besides me forever...

who can inspired me everytime...

who can hold me when i fall...

who can give their hand for me...

who can taking a good care of me...

who can make me laugh and crying...
who can complete my life...

the answer is...
my beloved FAMILY...

i always pray for all of you...

miss u all a lot...
realize that we're ONE family...

~~duGAaN~~

bukan mudah untuk membina keluarga yang bahagia...tapi itulah yang kita,,manusia inginkan...

kebahagiaan yang tiada tandingan...ikatan yang sukar dileraikan...namun,,termati di situ...

agkara diri kita sendiri yang tidak pernah cuba untuk menyelami hati ibu dan ayah...pernahkah kita selami begitu payahnya hidup mereka untuk memberi KEBAHAGIAAN...jagalah kebahagiaan yang kita miliki...kerna belum tentu kita diberi peluang yang kedua...

--kAwAn--TeMan--sAhaBat--

2009-02-13T01:46:00.005+08:00

fren,,we always laugh and crying together...we always make our life as simple as we can...

we always create a crazy things to make our life being fun...fren,,u couldnt be replace by any other...

u have your own lifestyle,,and always be yourself...u always make your life cheer like nothing happen...u always be patient when problem encountered...u're so sweet in my eye...

S-E-K-S-I

2009-02-13T01:08:00.003+08:00

baru ada kesempatan untuk wat tag yang k.ida bagi nie...

Caranya begini ;
1. Tangkap @ sertakan 3 gambar anda yang anda rasakan paling seksi
2. Tak semestinya tak berpakaian atau mendedahkan.Mungkin anda rasa senyuman anda
masa itu seksi. Sertakan!!
3. Nyatakan kenapa gambar itu begitu seksi bagi anda.
4. Tag 5 rakan-rakan anda yang seksi.
5. Selamat berseksi.

seksi dengan jelingan mataku...haha...

seksi sebab pakai sun glasses...seksi ea??...huhu

seksi sebab snap pic dgn ayam tu...lalalala...

rakan-rakan yang kurasakan seksi...seksi ker??[korang jawablah dalam hati yer]

1.LiNda

2.cAdeN

3.syaz

4.yana

5.syidek

tAgGed aGain

2009-02-09T02:14:00.003+08:00

tAgged from nAza...tOo mAny quEstiOns...bUt i'll tRy my bEst tO anSwer aLL tHe quEstiOns...

1.If you could spend one ringgit, what would you spend on?
~buy food coz i love to eat

2.What is your most favourite things to do?
~eating n sleeping

3.What kind of news do you read?
~entertainment

4.What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat?
~sowie..could not understand this question

5.Is there someone in your heart right now?
~my beloved family n fwens

6.Do you beleive you can survive without money?
~no

7.What make you turn twice to someone?
~when there's something special or someone who make the crazy things

8.What do you feel like doing right now?
~sleeping

9.If there's someone that you love,if would you confess to him/her?
~of coz

10.List out three good points of the person who tagged you?
~clever,,creative,,comey(yeker??)...lalalala

11.What are the requirements that you wish from you other half?
~ nuthink

12.What the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
~Lying me

13.Are you left-handed or rigt-handed?
~right-handed lorh

14.If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
~rice...could not it be many things...lalalala

15.If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
~happy...peace...

16.If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
~personality maybe

17.Who is the person that you can share all the problem with?
~my ever n ever beloved fwens,,ryn

18.Cats or dog?
~cute cat

19.What is the one thing you love about youself?
~simple

20.If you have a million ringgit, what would you do?
~make a beautiful paradise for my family

huh...finaLLy i done it...

the person who being tagged from me :
1.kilalovepurple
2.ikinluvbear
3.sweet_thinking
4.kAk ida
5.seperti_bintang

aKu dAn C-I-N-T-A

2009-02-05T20:30:00.007+08:00

mimPi??

aDakAh aKU bErmiMpi

memiLiki ciNta

yAng aKu seNdiri tiDak tAhu di mAna

dAn siApa??

::.sAmPAi mEnuTup MaTa.::

embun di pagi buta

menebarkn bau paksa

detik ini detik ku hidup

kini kah saatku pergi

oh tuhan ku cinta dia

berikanlah aku hidup

tak kan ku sakiti dia

hukum aku bila terjadi

aku tak mudah

untuk mencintai

aku tak mudah
mengaku ku cinta

aku tak mudah

mengatakan...aku jatuh cinta

senandungku hanya untuk cinta

firasatku hanya untuk engkau

tiada dusta

sumpah kucinta

sampaiku menutup mata

cintaku sampaiku menutup mata...

...GoOgLe piCtuRe...

2009-02-05T02:26:00.010+08:00

tAg dAripAda bOb

~jaWab pErTanYaan di Bawah dEngan gAmbar dAri Google~

-The Age of My Next Birthday-

sTiLl yOung...huhuhu

-A Place (or Places) I'd Like To Travel-

sWitzerLand

-A Favourite Place-

mY sWeeT hOme

-A favourite Food-

GrEen aPpLe... a DeLiciOus sWeEt n sOur tAste...

-Favourite Things-

cUte miCkey mOuse

(tEdDy beAr,,jAm tAngan,,kEycHain,,bEg,,bAju)

-A Favourite Color-

aPpLe gReen...pEacE...

-Where I Was Born-

Bakri,,Muar

-A City I've Lived In-

Muar,,Johor

-A Nickname I Have-

The 'sHoRtest gIrL' aMong mY fRens

-College Major-

CheMicaL eNgiNeeriNg (gAs tEch.)

-Hobby-

eAting...uNtuk gEmuKkan bAdan...lalalala

-Bad Habit-

sLeeping tOo mUch Like BaBy...

-Name oF My Love-

my bEloVed fAmily

(mAk,,aYah,,aBg joi +kAk Long = sHami,,kAk gEe,,

aBg bOb + kak Sue = aYis,,aBg aYie + kAk aiN,,kAk cA,,

kAk ma,,AKU,,niNa,,fiQri)

kAwaN2 kU yg tErsaYanG

-Whistlist-

buGaTti VeyrOn

gArden hOuse

jUst rEmeMber tHis

2009-01-30T23:46:00.003+08:00

oNce u fEeL LikE eVeryOne bLame u
onLy tHiNk tHat i wiLL aLwaYs hEre
aLwaYs sTay'd bEsiDes u

oNce i heAred u cRyiNg
i'LL tRy to mAke u aPpy
sMiLe LikE sUn
LauGh LikE nOthiNg wRoNg

beCouse of wHat....
beCouse i LovE u gUy

~~FRIENDS EVER~

2009-01-22T20:17:00.006+08:00

i'll try to live without yearn our memories

without remember all the happiness n sadness

i'll try to sleep without thinking about us

thinking about who we're,,yesterday n now

but i can't done it

n now i find the reason why i can't done!!
BECAUSE frens never die till d' end of life

[fOr aLL oF my beLoved fWens : sUe,niNa,pAdiL,dEwi,zUrai,iJat,nEysa,hUda,miZa,aiN,iZati n aLL of yOu...]

Once i fOrget aBout yOu aLL gUys

i'LL pUnish myseLf

OncE i fOrget aBout wHo i'am

i'LL puNish yOu gUys bCoz Let mE gOing oN

tHe onLy tHing i aSk of gOd

mAke me Love yOu aLL guys

fOreVer n eVer

n i'LL aLways pRay fOr yOur sUcceSs n hapPinEss

L~O~V~E

2009-01-22T19:07:00.004+08:00

LOvE

LOoK LiKE

LiFE LOsE LOnE

come from the BEAUTY

of the BONA FIDES

GERAM!!!!!!!

2009-01-20T20:51:00.004+08:00

tadi happy.tetiba jadi geram pulak.penat tunggu dari pagi,,petang n sekarang (malam),,tetiba dapat tahu dia nga t**o.huhu.marah ni.kata ada planning malam ni nak g cc.wat keje lain pulak dia.bila lagi nak g update blog.penat dah tggu ni.esok dah keje.mana sempat.geramm.oleh kerana kamu bersalah.kamu didenda.package makan,,shopping,,n transport holiday nanti,,kamu tanggung.huhuhu.simple kan.denda tetap denda.no excuse.oraittt.
[takde ar geram cangat pon.saja buat alasan mintak belanja.wakakaka.semua pembaca entry ini menjadi saksi kamu kena belanja kite.yey.]
mood bertukar : happy,,cronok buLi orang.

tOgeTher fOreVer

2009-01-20T20:27:00.002+08:00

if we hAve a wORd tO deScriBe oUr reLAtiOn,,i wiLL be tHe fiRst oNe wHo uSiNg it...bEcOuse uNtiL nOw,,i dOn't kNow how tO mEntiOn tO aLl aBout wHo we'rE...anYwaY...i wOuLd LikE tO sAy we're aPpy sWeeT tOgetHer...jUst prAy fOr oUr hApPiness...

i rePeat oNce aGain,, sWeet...

[ sPeciaL eNtry fOr sOmeOne wHo i miSs sOoo dAmn mUch...iF u reAd tHis eNtry,,pLeaSe teLL mE,,wHat tHe sUitAbLe wOrd fOr our reLatiOnship...hUhu...]

--tiLL d' eNd--

2009-01-20T13:28:00.007+08:00

dear GOD,,
the onLy thing i ask of you is to hoLd him when i'm not around,,
when i much thousand miles away...
we all need that person who can be true to you...
but i left him when i found him,,
and now,,
i wish i'd stayed till the end....

BE WITH YOU

2009-01-18T16:00:00.000+08:00

at the moment our LOVE being test

i choose the only one way

QUITE and keep silent

longing in my heart

you come and bring ANTIDOTE

drug my heart pain

DEFENCE our truly love

to come and reach for me

smile, cause i like you

yearn, cause i love you

hopes can be WITH YOU

rescuing yourself

FOREVER in my life

[spEciaL fOr sOme1 wHo aRe iNspiRed mE eVerytiMe...]

sAjer2 tuLis

2009-01-18T10:49:00.000+08:00

post kali ini hanya sekadar ingin mengingat kembali apa yang pernah berlaku

[12 September 2008]
hati aku begitu sakit dengan apa yang telah 'A' lakukan pada aku...aku terdiam saat perkataan2 itu terkeluar dari mulut dia...aku seperti tidak kenal lagi 'A' di mata aku...yang jelas waktu itu,, aku benci pada dia...hati aku penuh dengan kebencian saat itu...sahabat yang aku anggap seperti abang aku sendiri mengeluarkan perkataan yang cukup memeritkan...aku memilih untuk menyepikan diri...walupun beribu kali 'A' mengucapkan maaf,,aku tetap membisu...bukan niat aku untuk membenci...tetapi aku sudah tidak punya hati lagi untuk berhadapan dengan orang yang pernah mengeluarkan kata2 kesat pada aku...

[12 Sept. hingga sekarang]
seperti biasa,,aku mendiamkan diri...setiap panggilan dan mesej dari dia,,aku langsung tak endahkan...aku menganggap dia sudah tidak wujud lagi...sejak peristiwa itu,,aku sering kali menerima panggilan dan mesej dari insan yang tidak dikenali...tapi aku pasti,, itu adalah 'A'...begitu indah lakonan 'A'...tapi 'A' tak mampu menjadi pelakon yang terbaik...aku tidak pernah terpedaya dengan lakonan2 itu...bagi aku,,taktik itu sudah lapuk...lakonan 'A' yang semakin menjadi2,,membuat aku semakin meluat dengat dia...

atas nasihat beberapa orang sahabat aku,,aku memaafkan dia...betul kata mereka...semakin kita membenci seseorang,,semakin dekat orang itu dengan kita...lantas,,aku mengambil satu jalan,,memaafkan 'A'...tetapi itu bukan bermakna aku ingin seperti dulu dengannya...aku tidak mahu ada kaitan lagsung dengan 'A'...bagi aku, 'A' dah tidak wujud lagi...hati aku semakin tenang...'A' berjaya aku lenyapkan dari kamus hidupku...setiap mesej yang penuh dengan lakonan itu,,langsung tidak aku endahkan...aku sudah lali dengan semua itu...pengalaman yang lepas mengajar aku untuk tidak mengulanginya lagi...

suatu malam,,aku menerima mesej dari saudara 'A'...dia memberitahu aku bahawa 'A' telah meninggalkan kita untuk selamanya...begitu payah untuk aku terima hakikat itu...bukan kerana aku sedih di atas kehilangannya,tapi kerana aku langsung tidak percaya akan perkhabaran itu...jauh di dalam benak hati aku sekalipun,,langsung aku tidak percaya...mana mungkin orang yang sudah pergi menghadap iLahi,,bisa lagi menghantar mesej dan membuat beribu panggilan pada aku...hati aku sekali lagi berjaya lari dari perangkap tipu helah 'A'...

[17 January 2009]
aku terima mesej daripada 'R'...dia memberitahu aku bahawa 'A' akan berangkat pulang ke Tawau hari ini...bagi aku,,biarlah dia pergi...aku tidak lagi simpan perasaan benci padanya...biarlah aku dengan hidup aku,,dan 'A' dengan hidup dia...aku senang begini...
mereka tidak faham akan hati aku...aku tidak mahu ada kaitan dengan 'A'...inilah diri aku,,seorang yang begitu sensitif dengan dunia yang penuh dengan kepura2an...

biLa kenAngan iTu aKAn keMbaLi

2009-01-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

aku rindu pada sang bayu yang bertiup
menemani setiap malamku
aku rindu pada sang bulan yang bersinar
menerangi jalan kelamku

bisakah waktu itu kembali
membawa kenangan
yang tak bisa aku leraikan

sampai bila harus begini
menanti dan terus menanti
kerna aku tidak bisa menghargai
saat yang berlalu pergi

::.FREINDSHIP IS EVERYTHING.::

2009-01-15T16:39:00.000+08:00

Your Friendship Style is Empathetic

You deeply care about each person you're friends with. For you, friendship is all about the personal connection.
You tend to know everything about your friends' lives... and they know everything about yours. Your friends are your confidants.

You are always there for your friends. You celebrate their successes and support them in their times of need.
You are as loyal as they come. And you expect the same loyalty and understanding from your friends in return.

You and another Empathetic Friend: Have a amazing friendship, when it works. You care for each other deeply, but you often end up with hurt feelings and drama.

You and a Gregarious Friend: May have a bit of a one sided friendship. You adore your Social Friend, but you sometimes feel a bit neglected.

You and an Independent Friend: Struggle a bit. You are very interested in your Independent Friend's life, but your friend often needs more space.

You and a Philosophical Friend: Respect one another. You love to learn about your Philosophical Friend's brilliant ideas.

What's" Your Friendship Style?

BRIGHT EYES-cOntRast n cOmpAre

2009-01-15T12:16:00.000+08:00

between the busy ones
and the ones that don't care
until there is no one
that you really know
so,I drift through this days
of appoinments and promises made
they wil all end up broken
and quickly replace

weeks are slow, days drag on
even practice and parties seem long
but I found myself going
I guess there's nothing to do
oh well
group of kids,line of cars
more will show up after the bars close
there's the boredom that drowns everthing
bottles break, music plays
conservation competing for space
I look for a corner or a quieter room

there's no heat in this house
I can't breath with these word in my mouth
but i'm not going to say them
yeah,I've made that mistake before
on the stairs, she grabs my arm
says "what's up,where you been is something wrong?"
I try to just smile and say, "eerything is fine"

no money???but stiLL want to gO around the worLd???i hAve a bEst soLutiOn...

2009-01-14T23:46:00.001+08:00

'Drive_in Mini World Theme Park'...wow!!!look like so wonderful when i heared about the Tropical Village, Ayer Hitam...The place is about one and a half hours from Johor Bahru...it's located at the strategic places, only about five minutes after the Machap Toll Station on the one side...In the only 15 hectars land,,we can go around the world...imagine it!!!There are two towering 12 metre traditional kuda kepang,, te tallest in the country...Inside the park,, we will venture a picturesque three-acre azure lake borded by lush greenery,, paddle boats and intricate figurinewith a striking red bridge running across its crystal water...In the other side,, there are also 30 famous landmark in the world...Pyramids & Sphinx or Egypt,, Taj Mahal of India,, Eiffel Tower of Paris,, Olmer,, Head of Mexico,, Great of Wall China,, Atomium of Belgium,, Towers of Kuwait,, Leaning Towers of Pisa,, US' Statue of Liberty...Besides that,, there are also local milestones like A'Famosa,, endemic Malaysian items such as wayang kulit,, rebana,, gasing,, tanjak,, kris,, and wau bulan...So,,let's get a fun day at Tropical Village with only RM6 per entry...

hOt???let's cOoL it dOwn...

2009-01-14T20:32:00.000+08:00

What better way to cool down a hot Summer’s day, than with a fresh shake, juices and smoothies. There are many great flavours to choose such as vanilla, chocolate, strawberry, banana, apple and any other.
Let’s enjoy the hot day with the fresh cold drink with your family and friends. Make your day happy with colourful juices and milkshake. Besides the delicious taste in the drink, we also can release our stress.
Let’s enjoy it.

tOday nEw

2009-01-14T19:42:00.000+08:00

Israel shells southern Lebanon after rocket attack
Buzz Up

By SAM GHATTAS, Associated Press Writer Sam Ghattas, Associated Press Writer – Wed Jan 14, 2:49 am ET

BEIRUT, Lebanon – Lebanese security officials say the Israeli army has fired eight shells at southern Lebanon after rockets were fired into northern Israel.
This is the second such cross-border exchange since Israel launched an offensive in Gaza on its southern flank on Dec. 27, and it threatens to ignite a second front in the north.
The area has been largely quiet since the 2006 Lebanon-Hezbollah war.
The Lebanese officials say several rockets were fired Wednesday and at least one fell short inside Lebanon. Israeli police say the militants' rockets caused no injuries or damage, but residents were told to head to bomb shelters.
The Lebanese officials spoke on condition of anonymity because they were not allowed to speak to the press.
THIS IS A BREAKING NEWS UPDATE. Check back soon for further information. AP's earlier story is below.
JERUSALEM (AP) — Police say three rockets fired from Lebanon have landed in northern Israel.
Police say the rockets landed in open areas near the town of Kiryat Shemona on Wednesday and there were no reports of damage or injuries. People in northern Israel were asked to head to bomb shelters.
Israeli officials have expressed concern that militants in Lebanon could try to open a second front in solidarity with Gaza's Hamas rulers against Israel's 19-day offensive against the militant group.
Four rockets were fired on northern Israel last Thursday. Lebanon's Hezbollah guerrilla group denied responsibility and speculation focused on small Palestinian groups in Lebanon.

::.GrEen or aPpLe.::

2009-01-13T07:47:00.000+08:00

what the link between green and apple??..
when we combine the word,,we get green apple...
what the different between green apple and apple green??...
we get one colour,,and one food...
all the things that are related to 'green and apple' will make me crazy...[huhu]

i'am apple green...

DuNia kiTa bErbEza

2009-01-11T01:11:00.000+08:00

kita punya hati untuk menyayangi...kita juga punya hati untuk merindui...namun,,kita tidak punya hati untuk memiliki...kita hanya punya ruang untuk menghargai...lumrah kehidupan,,ada pertemuan dan ada perpisahan...semuanya sudah tertulis dalam qada'dan qadar Nya...kita perlu redha dengan ketentuan iLahi...

kita ditemukan tanpa diduga...ketika waktu mendatangkan cinta...aku memilih dirimu...setiap denyut nadiku terdengar bisikan kasihmu...setiap hela nafas,,kau kurindu...begitu payah nak ku lelapkan mata...bayanganmu sering mengganggu lenaku...aku seperti terpukau dengan cintamu...begitu indah halaman cinta yang kita bina...

namun...di suatu saat...tiba-tiba,,jantungku seakan-akan berhenti berdegup...tiada hela nafas yang dirasai...tiada denyutan nadi yang berbunyi...aku mati di situ...di satu sudut,,aku diam terpaku...bisu tanpa bicara...masihkah ada aku di situ??...aku cuba bernafas...namun aku lemah di situ...hakikat yang perlu aku telan...perlukah aku mengiringinya ke dunia itu...dunia yang jauh di sana...

mengapa??mengapa aku dibiarkan sendirian...mengapa kau pergi dulu sebelum aku...aku terpaku menjadi kaku...bisikan-bisikan sekelilingku tidak langsung masuk ke dalam fikiranku...hanya bayanganmu yang ada di sini...aku mencari seribu jawapan disebalik seribu persoalan...mengapa kau tinggalkan aku di saat aku memerlukan dirimu...

kini aku kesepian...kita berda di dunia yang berbezaa...inilah ktentuan..aku bangkit dari kegelapan...kegelapan yang aku sendri bina...aku bawa bayanganmu mengiringi perjalanan hidupku...walaupun payah untuk aku teruskan kehidupan ini,,aku gagahkan jua...

kErNa ku sAyaNg kAMu

2009-01-11T00:35:00.000+08:00

seandainya

kau ada di sini denganku

mungkinku tak sendiri

bayanganmu yang selalu menemaniku

hiasi malam sepiku

ku ingin bersama dirimu

tak akan pernah

berpaling darimu

walau kini

kau jauh dariku

kau selalu ku nanti

kerna ku sayang kamu

hati ini

selalu memanggil namamu

degarlah melatiku

ku berjanji

hanyalah untukmu cintaku

tak akan pernah ada yang lain

adakah rindu di hatimu

seperti rindu yang ku rasa

sanggupkah ku terus terlena

tanpamu di sisi

ku kan selalu menantimu

FiRst wOrd...

2009-01-10T16:36:00.000+08:00

embun pagi menyapa tubuhku
tertusuk nafas dalam tenang
aku bangkit menjadi aku
luka dilautan usah dikenang

::.bukan niat ku untuk membenci kamu
bukan salahku membuang kamu dari kamus hidupku
aku manusia biasa...
tidak lari dari membuat prasangka
namun...
pernahkah engkau terfikir
salahkah kamu menyakitiku
pernahkah terdetik di hatimu
salahkah kamu mengguris hati kecilku.::
::.aku bukan boneka untuk diperalatkan
aku bukan patung untuk dipermainkan
aku manusia biasa...
punya hati dan setitik rasa
aku tidak pernah menyimpan dendam
apatah lagi ingin bermusuh
tetapi...
aku tidak mahu mengingati,,
apatah lagi mendekati,,
insan-insan yang melukai hatiku...
aku tidak mahu menjadi pelakon
berpura-pura disebalik diri aku sendiri
aku tidak mahu memperdagangkan persahabatan itu.::
::.biarlah aku meyendiri di sini
senyap tanpa berita
aku senang begini
melupakan kisah silam itu
bangkit dengan ceritera baru
aku inginkan kedamaian
fahamilah aku.::

sWeeT grEen aPpLe

aku cHeNta sKoOt

cOming bAck

kau yAng ku mAhu

ToO coOL tO cAre

~~mUsiCs~~

~~smiLe~~

haNcuR hAti

~freNz eVer~

~dua hari bersama mereka~

u're my FRIEND - u're my LOVE

~nUtHinK~

u aRe mY sUnsHine

~aKu hAmpir pUtus aSa~

aKu daLam DiLemA

SeBuAh pERjaLaNan

MiSsiNg yOu

~~The Tears Are Falling~~

AKU DATANG LAGI!!!

d' Latest piCtuRe

-SkOoL maTes-

~~LOVE~~

--kAwAn--TeMan--sAhaBat--

S-E-K-S-I

~~tAgGed aGain~~

aKu dAn C-I-N-T-A

...GoOgLe piCtuRe...

~~jUst rEmeMber tHis~~

~~FRIENDS EVER~

L~O~V~E

GERAM!!!!!!!

tOgeTher fOreVer

--tiLL d' eNd--

~~BE WITH YOU~~

sAjer2 tuLis

biLa kenAngan iTu aKAn keMbaLi

::.FREINDSHIP IS EVERYTHING.::

BRIGHT EYES-cOntRast n cOmpAre

no money???but stiLL want to gO around the worLd???i hAve a bEst soLutiOn...

hOt???let's cOoL it dOwn...

tOday nEw

::.GrEen or aPpLe.::

DuNia kiTa bErbEza

kErNa ku sAyaNg kAMu

FiRst wOrd...

mUsiCs

smiLe

The Tears Are Falling

LOVE

tAgGed aGain

jUst rEmeMber tHis

BE WITH YOU